Hello there.
It’s been a hot minute since I wrote anything here. That absence wasn’t exactly intentional, and in the time since I put out the masculinity post I’ve been batting around a ton of ideas for posts here, including blogs about my recent trips to Thailand and Grenada (my savings will never recover, but who gives a fuck), posts about the new yeule, Julia Wolf, and Lorde albums, and something about being gay and doing internet crime (I was really excited to call it “Pride and Piracy” or something).
But none of those posts materialized for two primary reasons. First, I’ve started a new job as a direct services attorney, serving mostly poor people facing eviction or subsidy termination. I’m managing a pretty big (and growing) case load and many of my clients are facing not just their particular case but also other forms of precarity. Doing right by them has meant devoting less time to hobbies and side projects.
The second reason is a bit more pointed: none of the above post ideas seem to speak to the moment that we’re living in. It feels really weird and out-of-touch to write some academic post about Grenada’s failed socialist revolution or how various pop stars handle femininity when the U.S. government is dumping money into a homegrown Gestapo with the express purpose of disappearing dissident brown people. How can I write lovingly about an imagined past of internet freedom when the last vestiges of that past are being torched by a right-wing revanchist court?

At the risk of sounding like a parody of myself, the problem is that my hauntological preoccupation with communicating with the ghosts of the past has crashed against the reality that the present and future are horrible. No level of navelgazing or historical adventurism can beat back the simple fact that the revolutions all failed and the pregnant possibility of the past ended in miscarriage. The lessons we can actually glean from the past are fairly straightforward if we’re willing to listen to them — Grenada’s March 13 Revolution succeeded in mobilizing working class discontent and Black Power sentiment, but was quashed by global capital. A tale as old as time. The present in Grenada is one of malaise, where there’s little memory of or hope for upheaval. I don’t need to write a book to tell you that, at a moment of revolutionary possibility, capital stopped pretending to be human and started killing everyone.
Here, in the U.S., we’re “celebrating” Independence Day, which is supposed to be a love letter to our revolutionary spirit, our divinely ordained destiny, and our freedom-loving lineage. However, not since the eve of the Civil War have these ideals felt so out of touch and anachronistic. A country that is sitting on its laurels as a corrupt kleptocrat seizes god-like powers cannot lay claim to a revolutionary heritage. A country that treats its poor like grist for the mill is not God-fearing or adherent to any religious principle. And a country building concentration camps and financing a secret police cannot call itself freedom-loving.
The recent fascist turn by the United States is not exactly surprising — Trump and Co. told us they’d do this in Project 2025 — but one of the things that’s been especially demoralizing to me is seeing in such stark relief the limits and inutility of the law. When the administration blatantly violates the Constitution, the Court will simply kneecap the courts’ ability to enforce it. When the administration defies court orders and nakedly breaks the law, the courts will slow-walk sanctions in fear of actualizing a crisis that is already here. All of this amounts to a legal system that will do anything to accommodate this dictator and his apparatchiks, even when it denigrates their power and makes a mockery of their stations.
Contrast this with the legal system that my clients encounter every day. If a poor person misses a court date (like the administration did earlier this year), they get a default judgment and their ability to litigate their case is severely curtailed. They’re basically screwed absent dramatic measures that are largely at the discretion of a judge (judges, of course, have little sympathy for poor people. All of it is reserved for multinational corporations and fascists, apparently). The letter of the law, with its deadlines, mandates, and edicts, is very real for poor people, for marginal people of all stripes.
It is not real for the very folks who should be most constrained by it.
This contrast is not new — leftists and liberals have been railing against a “two-tiered system of justice” for a hot minute now. But I think the thing that is most stark to me in this moment isn’t that the law applies differently to different strata of people. It’s the fact that the law does not apply at all to some people. Trump should have been disqualified from the 2024 election and jailed for his crimes. He wasn’t, he was rendered untouchable. Diddy’s crimes were an open secret in Hollywood for decades, he should have been sent to rot under the prison. He wasn’t, and very well could face very little if no jail time. Israel has illegally committed war crimes in Syria, Gaza, and Iran on camera, the evidence unquestionable. The country should have been ostracized by the international community, its leaders dragged in front of the International Criminal Court and held to account. They haven’t been. In fact the West has rallied to Israel’s defense, using police violence to stifle any valid criticism of them. Anything they can’t beat down with a baton is castigated as antisemitism.
In short, it is clear that the law is failing at its core purpose. It is not curtailing antisocial or criminal behavior, it is not protecting institutions, it is not protecting the innate individual rights of people. The social contract has been breached.
For someone who has — at least for now — committed his life to practicing law out of a (misguided) belief that the law had a useful if not totalizing role to play in protecting the rights of people, particularly discrete and insular minorities, this whole thing has been radicalizing and humbling for me. As a leftist who came up in a working class, single parent family touched by America’s toxic immigration system, I have known pretty much my entire life that the law is not exactly a force for liberation. The “centrist position is to be evil.” My mother, who briefly pursued law before retreating to academia, often remarked that the bar was the “nursery of Satan.” She was right about a lot of things, but even I didn’t quite know how right she was about this.
There’s not really much more to say. Things are bad and getting worse. People who have long suffered are being told they must suffer more so that those who are thriving can breathe even easier. There is no easy fix, no sloganeering or special election that will reverse all of this. Hell, even if there was, the very folks tasked with opposing this mess are too busy firing on their own to take the fight to the enemy. There’s precious little to get excited about or hold onto in these moments, and I don’t know that I’m equipped to offer up anything. The best we can do is keep fighting, keep hoping. We have to do our best to protect one another. And we must do so knowing that the law is not a tool we have at our disposal.

